When I imagined being a mom, I wasn’t quite certain what to expect. Sure, I had some images floating through my mind of chasing after little ones on a summer day, cuddling sleepy children in front of the fireplace, and holding my peaceful baby while watching her sleep.
Granted, I knew these Hollywood versions of parenthood wouldn’t be the norm. From watching friends, I knew there would be tears and dirty diapers and less sleep than I was used to. But there was one thing I was sure of: I would always be able to soothe my baby and meet all her needs. After all, that’s what mothers do, right?
We had a good enough start. Livi came out crying but as soon as they put her in my arms, she calmed down. The nurses even commented how beautiful it was to witness. And I’m not going to lie, it felt amazing to be able to calm this tiny new person just by being there. Had I known what lay ahead, I would have savored that moment even more.
I have been trying for a while now to get Livi interested in some kind of arts and crafts but up until now all I got was a cold shoulder and a loudly howled “Noooo.”
No matter what I tried, she just wasn’t interested. I suspect she didn’t want to sit still for more than three seconds.
That has changed recently. Now she is capable of sitting down for longer periods of time, especially when we read to her or look at one of her many picture books.
I don’t think there’s a single child that likes going to the doctor. But some deal with it better than others. Livi doesn’t handle it so well.
In her defense, she had to endure quite a few doctor visits during her first year due to her reflux. Because of her high need nature, she is also much more sensitive and easily overwhelmed in uncomfortable or unfamiliar situations.
We never had a visit without tears. They start rolling even when no shots are scheduled. And it has gotten worse every time.
Livi hasn’t been doing so well the last few days. She’s been feeling under the weather and all she wants is to be held by mommy or daddy. She even ignores the snacks and books that normally excite her. My little girl, who always has so much energy and is usually all over the place, now only knows one place she wants to be, in our arms.
Yesterday afternoon she got a fever so we are off to the doctor’s office this morning to make sure she has nothing serious that needs more than love to get her through and over it.
Most of my posts highlight the challenges I encounter(ed) while raising a high need baby and now toddler. It may seem that all I do is complain about my life or that I am ungrateful for my little girl. But both could not be further from the truth.
There are several reasons why I choose to emphasize the difficult parts on my blog:
When Livi was born, people would constantly tell me to sleep when the baby sleeps. And I tried but it was not meant to be.
I mentioned before that in the beginning, Livi would not sleep for more than thirty minutes at night and often only while we held her. That also meant that we would not get much sleep ourselves and that it was often impossible to sleep at the same time.
I have been nominated for the “Very Inspiring Blogger Award.”
Thank you so much Doodle Dad, for the nomination, I appreciate it. It is nice to think that I may actually inspire others.